So hey, I know it's a very common occurrence, we all have those really bad days where you come home with a frown and you just want the whole world to burn and die.(just kidding - not) Well I don't think they are exactly that bad. I mean in those terrible, horrible, not good and very bad days we just get all our frustrations out. You scream and cry, you're absolutely bonkers and you are simply angry. So I believe it works out like a therapy sometimes?
The issue though is not those really terrible days, the problem especially with me is those days where i'm simply frustrated. The day wasn't so bad, nothing extra ordinarily bad happens it's just that it was an okay day. Maybe because I was hoping for something great to come out of it or maybe because I just had a random mood swing. The thing though is that feeling you get? How do I say it? IT's that feeling when you feel that you are nothing but ordinary and all the damned unanswerable questions start piling in along with the burden of my insecurities. I don't know if this is something you experience or not. For some really selfish reason I really wish you do! Now I do not wish any foul on you but it feels good to know that you aren't alone out there. Most of the times even standing in am entire group of people you can feel that so I give myself the tiniest bit of freedom to indulge in thinking maybe someone feels exactly like I do maybe!
So to this very vague rant that I am writing does have some backstory. So imagine you had a choice- one is where you where you were presented with an amazing opportunity to show off your talent, take a bit of responsibility and socialize to the fullest and the other was to give it up and take something more mature. (hate that word to my core) Anyway the conflict is that you've to make a difficult decision and let go of the fun part sometimes and take up the mature one. But isn't it obvious that you'd be upset over the choice at least for a little while? Wouldn't you crib too? Or am I just going nuts? I am hope you'd be upset too, because that is the only sort of natural reaction I know. So when I expressed this to 2 of my mates, whom I generally choose to hang out with. One of them as usual was lost in some world ( Yup, zoning out does happen quite often) and chose not to reply or didn't care about it I guess. The other one flat out cut me off saying you made a choice so stop whining, it isn't a big deal. Except in that very moment it is, Isn't it? She said the normal reaction is to get over it and never complain. I do agree to that but as a human don't we have limitations? I kept quiet the rest of the way. So that was when the domino started falling and the day ended up just being disappointing.
Anyway, what do you think is normal for you? That is if you ever did come across such situation? Okay, I'm done. So Bye!!
The issue though is not those really terrible days, the problem especially with me is those days where i'm simply frustrated. The day wasn't so bad, nothing extra ordinarily bad happens it's just that it was an okay day. Maybe because I was hoping for something great to come out of it or maybe because I just had a random mood swing. The thing though is that feeling you get? How do I say it? IT's that feeling when you feel that you are nothing but ordinary and all the damned unanswerable questions start piling in along with the burden of my insecurities. I don't know if this is something you experience or not. For some really selfish reason I really wish you do! Now I do not wish any foul on you but it feels good to know that you aren't alone out there. Most of the times even standing in am entire group of people you can feel that so I give myself the tiniest bit of freedom to indulge in thinking maybe someone feels exactly like I do maybe!
So to this very vague rant that I am writing does have some backstory. So imagine you had a choice- one is where you where you were presented with an amazing opportunity to show off your talent, take a bit of responsibility and socialize to the fullest and the other was to give it up and take something more mature. (hate that word to my core) Anyway the conflict is that you've to make a difficult decision and let go of the fun part sometimes and take up the mature one. But isn't it obvious that you'd be upset over the choice at least for a little while? Wouldn't you crib too? Or am I just going nuts? I am hope you'd be upset too, because that is the only sort of natural reaction I know. So when I expressed this to 2 of my mates, whom I generally choose to hang out with. One of them as usual was lost in some world ( Yup, zoning out does happen quite often) and chose not to reply or didn't care about it I guess. The other one flat out cut me off saying you made a choice so stop whining, it isn't a big deal. Except in that very moment it is, Isn't it? She said the normal reaction is to get over it and never complain. I do agree to that but as a human don't we have limitations? I kept quiet the rest of the way. So that was when the domino started falling and the day ended up just being disappointing.
Anyway, what do you think is normal for you? That is if you ever did come across such situation? Okay, I'm done. So Bye!!
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